‘With the new role comes new responsibilities. You are the one answerable for everything moving forward.’ These were pretty much the words that echoed in the conference room yesterday. Yes, he was addressing me.
As I told you in my post on Monday, I have been promoted. So, yes I have more responsibilities now. Of-course, I knew that. Anybody would know that, right? It was something that I had thought of, knew about and anticipated. But when I heard these words from him it kind of registered for the first time. If I screw up or if anyone in the team screws up, its up to me. And that sent me into a tizzy of self doubt.
Honestly, I’m feeling a bit scared you know. I want to do well but I’m worried what if I don’t? You know it’s a scary, scary thought. Let’s just say I’m worried. Will I be able to stay afloat or I’ll just sink to fathomless depths of failure? That is what is bothering me ever since I heard those words.
Well, I guess there’s only one way to find out. I need to take the plunge and see what happens. Of-course, I’m saying this with butterflies in my stomach and a kind of sick feeling that things aren’t going to be easy going forward. But then what am I if I can’t take this simple and mundane challenge eh? Alright not so simple but then there are bigger mountains to climb, so I can’t shy away from this. Maybe one day I can look back and say I was worried for nothing? Oh God please let that only be the case!
Well, I guess there’s only one way to find out. I need to take the plunge and see what happens. Of-course, I’m saying this with butterflies in my stomach and a kind of sick feeling that things aren’t going to be easy going forward. But then what am I if I can’t take this simple and mundane challenge eh? Alright not so simple but then there are bigger mountains to climb, so I can’t shy away from this. Maybe one day I can look back and say I was worried for nothing? Oh God please let that only be the case!
So that’s that. Apart from that I’m finding no time to write you know. With guests at home and so much work at office, 24 hours seem so less! But I won’t give up on writing which is a promise I’ve made to myself, even if I dish out such posts. You’ll still read them, won’t you?
These few days or this week rather has been so frustrating really. From morning till I finally go to bed I feel like I’m on the clock. Not a moment to spare! Wake up, cook & go to office. There work, work & work some more. Go back home and cook again. There’s just no time! So much so that when I have a few moments off I don’t know whether I should spend that reading books or writing. A sad, sad conflict because I want to do both in a day. But I just have a short window to accommodate only one of the two. It’s like I’m stuck in a viscous cycle! The husband says it’ll all settle down in a few days. I sure hope so or else I’m not sure I can find time for myself.
Well, that’s all for now.
Ciao
You will find a rhythm with the positive new change, I am sure. Give yourself time to get used to it!
Congratulations, Naba on your promotion and bigger role at work! I'm sure you'll sail through and put all your fears to rest. As for writing here, do it whenever you can without stressing on writing and it will happen seamlessly. We'll of course read whatever you have to share 🙂 Take care and all the best!
First things first.. Congrats and many more to come. But take a deep breath. Everything will fall in place. good luck, Naba 🙂
Damn this IT World , When I was promoted i heard kind of same words and what I did was sit back relax and enjoyed some music !! 😛
Congratulations on the promotion. It does take a while to get into the rhythm of the new responsibilities, but soon you will find your place. All the very best!
And The burn outs!! I am on a verge of it….All the best….You are a fighter!
My best wishes..
am sure u wil do great 🙂
Congratulations on the promotion. That is huge!
I hear you sister! I am soooo busy with court work, office work, cooking, gym and everything else, that writing has started to take a backseat. It shouldnt! I should write atleast a post a week. 🙁
Naba,congrats for the well deserved promotion. Once you settle down, you get time for every thing. Best wishes.